stuck

i'm in a horrible stage in my life where i don't know what i want to do next, now or ever and it's so stressful.
mainly because my parents and even some of my friends are constantly asking me what i'm going to do after uni, and i literally have no idea and then i get angry.
choosing where to live is hard enough, stay in leeds? which half my friends are pressuring me to do, move to my mum's in warrington. but she's ill and i have no friend's there, or stay at my dad's, who i can't stand. urgh thinking about the future is hard.
if i had it my way i'd just party all the time but i know thats not a realistic option.
i just don't want to grow up! :(

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