it's been a little while;

it really has, i feel like theres so much i should talk about but its not all for a public blogs eyes :)
so basically i've been drinking since weds, but i think cause of the drinking 4 days in a row i've become immune to hangovers, either that or as dan suggested maybe i'm still drunk and just dont even know. think i'll have a break from drinking for a few days now. might go to bigger than barry with charlotte on tues though and oceana weds. literally hopping from genres of music there. i tell you something, i know im always like "tonight has been SOOOO dramatic" when im drunk but i did genuinely experience the most dramatic night of my life so far in this 4 day drinking binge. it wasnt out of hand dramatic though just a bit like 'oh ok then'. you know what they say, "when life gives you lemons, twist some of the peel into a martini", i do realise that isnt the quote at all but i thought it was quite funny if not a little cringe. almost forgot, i've part sorted my life out after leeds now so thats good. i think things are on the up again :)

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rainbow elephant

"The weekend has landed. All that exists now is clubs, drugs, pubs and parties. I've got 48 hours off from the world, man. I'm gonna blow steam out my head like a screaming kettle, I'm gonna talk cod shit to strangers all night, I'm gonna lose the plot on the dancefloor. The free radicals inside me are freakin', man! Tonight I'm Jip Travolta, I'm Peter Popper, I'm going to never-never land with my chosen family, man. We're gonna get more spaced out than Neil Armstrong ever did, anything could happen tonight, you know? This could be the best night of my life. I've got 73 quid in my back burner - I'm gonna wax the lot, man! The Milky Bars are on me! Yeah"

Jip - Human Traffic.

stuck

i'm in a horrible stage in my life where i don't know what i want to do next, now or ever and it's so stressful.
mainly because my parents and even some of my friends are constantly asking me what i'm going to do after uni, and i literally have no idea and then i get angry.
choosing where to live is hard enough, stay in leeds? which half my friends are pressuring me to do, move to my mum's in warrington. but she's ill and i have no friend's there, or stay at my dad's, who i can't stand. urgh thinking about the future is hard.
if i had it my way i'd just party all the time but i know thats not a realistic option.
i just don't want to grow up! :(

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kim kardashian you babe

slightly addicted

to eBay, i'm not even going to lie i have spent a small fortune on there, but it's like i cant even help it.
i get drawn into it too easily;
and the bidding.
oh god the bidding.
i don't like loosing either so thats a bit tough, you know just letting that item go. even if i don't really want to own it.
i wish you could buy pugs off eBay, that would be good, although i presume they would be disease ridden.
onto other subjects.
i wish i lived in america so badly. especially after watching 90210, i feel like it is my calling.
i dont know how my ginger pale skin would manage though.
NEED sleep
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functioning on 2 hours sleep is deffinatly not a favourite of mine. i literally thought i was going to die, so i did what most people do when they are tired. i drunk coffee. 2 cups. which, was great when i'd just drunk it but then after about an hour or so just made me feel rough.
auditioning for big brother was fun aswell, although i didn't get through it was a LARFFF, and maybe some of the people i auditioned with might get on and i can tell people;
"i totally auditioned with (insert name here)!"
i'm going to one of my best friends parties tonight. she is 21, but last night was bad enough, absolute lariest people in the restaurant. i blame the champagne and the fact i have no shame anymore. don't know how i'm going to drink again, i think i just need to get past the first drink hurdle and i'll be fine.....

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